I’m surprised at you people. I thought coffee drinkers were everywhere, but apparently most of my readers don’t drink coffee. I didn’t realize I was in a minority here in my little blog circle, lol. Oh well, maybe one day you’ll come around now that you know the lingo.

My mother came into town Tuesday. Normally that wouldn’t mean anything to the average girl. But we have a strained relationship. She is fierce, and argues everything to death. And when I get mad, I tear up. So, I cried a lot. It was rather embarrassing to be crying in front of the waitress at the restaurant, and then again at the mall. And I felt sick, so of course she did the motherly thing and made a big fuss about my health. I felt cold, and she made such a big deal that I ordered a water, I needed something hot and warm. She even felt my forehead in front of the waitress. How old am I, mother? lol I love that she cares, but cut me some slack!!

But all of our talking has helped me to make her realize that I’m not taking computer science for me. I’m taking it for my father. I don’t want to do it. I don’t know what I want to do for undergrad, but it’s definitely not that, lol. I’ve decided to drop a class. My first ever withdraw on my transcript. I can’t handle the stress of 5 classes a semester and working. And frankly, that teacher scared the crap out of me. It seemed like it was his personal vendetta to make students fail because he’s an old man that secretly grudges the younger generation for the pampered lifestyle they live. So, he doesn’t teach the subject, he acts like we already know it. I just can’t handle that on top of everything else. I feel so relieved to never have to step foot in that classroom again. But I also feel like I failed, like I gave up and quit. Which I did. But I’m more relieved than mad at myself.

I’ve also decided to screw computer science. Why am I inflicting such a miserable experience upon myself? I don’t enjoy it, I never will, and every lab has brought me to tears in some form or fashion. So why keep doing it? I only need one more class to get the minor. So I am going to get that class and get the hell out of there!! That is, if I get formally accepted into the education college. And since they are in desperate demand of math teachers, why wouldn’t they accept me?! And if all goes well, I’ll still be able to go to Texas A&M. So at least I got something out of the visit. And it was nice to have someone else pick up the tab at the restaurant, lol.

I’m such a failure… but at least I’m getting somewhere, in a round about way, lol.

I love random advertising for a place I’ve never heard of. I came across a demographically targeted link for Outer Banks vacation rentals. Apparently it’s in North Carolina. But why would I travel to North Carolina when I could go to South Carolina? lol Maybe there’s a reason they’re advertising, trying to get more traffic? lol, nice try people….

Ever drop a class?